"My Shelter"
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"But does she still know who you are.....?"
There was such an emphasis stressed in that question. I wasted so many hours worrying about how I would react when this awful 'dreaded moment' would occur.
It happened during one of the most tense parts of our day. I was coaching my Mom on how to put her clothes on. "No! Put your hand in this hole! Put your socks on your feet.” She set her socks on her lap, let out a sigh and looked straight at me. "So, now, tell me who you are?" My heart skipped a beat but what fell out of my mouth still baffles me to this day. I was so focused on HER and how frightened she must be feeling if she didn't even know me, the closest person to her...
Watercolor
"But does she still know who you are.....?"
There was such an emphasis stressed in that question. I wasted so many hours worrying about how I would react when this awful 'dreaded moment' would occur.
It happened during one of the most tense parts of our day. I was coaching my Mom on how to put her clothes on. "No! Put your hand in this hole! Put your socks on your feet.” She set her socks on her lap, let out a sigh and looked straight at me. "So, now, tell me who you are?" My heart skipped a beat but what fell out of my mouth still baffles me to this day. I was so focused on HER and how frightened she must be feeling if she didn't even know me, the closest person to her...
My eyes met hers and I said calmly with a smile, "I am someone you trust and I'm not going to leave you. So you don't have to worry." I sat on the bed next to her and she put her head on my shoulder and melted into my side. I held her for a few minutes and she simply said "ok", and finished dressing with very little prompting from me.
God took over in those moments, allowing me to consider HER feelings and not how hurt I was. I’m not saying that I didn't fall to pieces. Ten minutes later I left the room and cried my eyes out. But part of the emotion was thankfulness because God showed me His presence and His loving grace. I never thought that at such a profound moment in my life God would show up in such a tremendous way. He loves us so much that He took over for me because I didn’t have the strength nor the grace to say such a comforting thing to her; but He always does.
How is God showing up in your life? The same God who says to us, "I won't save you from a distance, I'll come to your world as you came; as a baby" is the same God who comes near to us in our suffering. You’ll never forget what He speaks to you out of the storm.
God took over in those moments, allowing me to consider HER feelings and not how hurt I was. I’m not saying that I didn't fall to pieces. Ten minutes later I left the room and cried my eyes out. But part of the emotion was thankfulness because God showed me His presence and His loving grace. I never thought that at such a profound moment in my life God would show up in such a tremendous way. He loves us so much that He took over for me because I didn’t have the strength nor the grace to say such a comforting thing to her; but He always does.
How is God showing up in your life? The same God who says to us, "I won't save you from a distance, I'll come to your world as you came; as a baby" is the same God who comes near to us in our suffering. You’ll never forget what He speaks to you out of the storm.